Trust without Borders

I was listening to a song the other day. The lyrics stopped me in my tracks. It stilled my soul and shook my flesh. The lyrics~

“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

                                                           In the presence of my Savior”.

TRUST…FAITH…FEAR…

I asked myself,"Do I have borders around my trust??" If being honest I would have to say, Um… ABSOLUTELY!! I started thinking about how I want to protect myself and live safely. I want to put my faith and trust in things that I can see and touch, things that are tangible and natural. To put it bluntly, I want to trust in myself!!! Why?? Because of FEAR…the absence of trust!! I have asked God to break this in me. I do not want to live in the confines of FEAR…I want to TRUST HIM fully wherever he would call me.

You see there are places where I feel the safest, the most in control. I feel safe in my home surrounded by the people and things that I know. I feel safe in my city where I know how to get around. I feel safe in my country where I speak the same language as everyone else.  BORDERS and Boundaries!! Yet, I wonder… Has God called me to live a safe life? One where I can easily predict each day??....bubble wrapped in my own handmade comforts…Hardly! God is WILD and desires to take us on adventures where we will discover depths of Him that we would have never known without stepping out upon the water (disclaimer~everyones water stepping experience will look different ;).

I think of Peter when he saw the Lord walking upon the water, the wonder and amazement that must have been swimming within his soul. Natural eyes looking upon the supernatural… The disciples thought Jesus was a ghost as he walked up to them. Peter was so amazed that he asked the Lord to command him to come out and walk upon the water. In faith, he swung his leg over the side of the boat and began walking towards the Lord. He took his eyes off of the Lord, only a moment, and began looking around HIMSELF at the winds and waves, human logic and reason began to creep into his mind. He started sinking in shear panic and cried out saying, ”Lord SAVE me!!” Jesus immediately reached out His hand and took hold of him, saying to him “O' you of little faith, why did you doubt?” When they were back in the boat everyone marveled saying, “Truly you are the Son of God”

I wonder, what was Peter thinking as he climbed back into the boat? He was soaking wet, he had just seen his teacher walk upon water, he himself had taken steps across the water and as his faith weakened he fell in. Everyone was worshipping Jesus in a tiny boat is the middle of the lake. Amazed, awed...I wonder where Peters heart was. It doesn't really say in the context of the passage.....but I do wonder...

 As I search my own heart, I find myself to be much like Peter. I have an immediate courage or faith but as the winds and waves begin to enclose, I take my eyes off of Jesus…and I begin to sink!! What have I then put my trust in? Have I trusted in myself,  the world around me (circumstances), or the Living GOD?

This has all been circling through my mind as I prepare to go to Romania ALONE!!! This is WAY out of my comfort-zone/boundaries. I CANNOT stand flying…Airplanes just do NOT make sense in my brain. I will be flying across the ocean…with NOWHERE to land if we need to! Never mind the fact that people do this all of the time and are perfectly safe and statistically I am safer in the plane flying over the ocean than I am in my car on the way to the airport ;) Because when I get there I will be climbing into a van and riding for 7 more hours across the Hungarian/Romanian border through crazy mountains!!

I am swinging my leg over the side of the boat with every confidence that Jesus will be right by my side the whole way. If I begin to sink into my fear I need only cry, “Jesus save me”

So going back to the song lyrics…..


“Spirit lead me where my trust is without borders

Let me walk upon the waters

Wherever You would call me

Take me deeper than my feet could ever wander

And my faith will be made stronger

                           In the presence of my Savior”.